A Christmas Wish for Inspiration

I wish for inspiration for writing what I love. Now that we are in our forever home in Arizona, I wish to find a day job that will allow me to have weekends and holidays off with full benefits, so I can have time with family, friends and writing what I love.

It has been awhile since I've written anything, it has been quite a while since I've had any inspiration to write anything, so I thought I'd write here to get what I feel out into the universe. 

Christmas has always been my favorite time of year, well actually all the holidays are. They all hold something special for me and they all include my love for my family and friends and the memories I have. I believe it is very important to spend time with family and friends, because life is short and we have to let our loved ones know how we feel. When we look back on our lives, we only remember the memories and the imprints we leave on each other and I don't want to live my life without these memories anymore.

I wasn't going to decorate for Christmas, because we have too much going on with fixing up the house we moved into. Ours house is a mess with everything we are doing. I was at my sister Kathy's home with her husband Wade in California for Thanksgiving to be with family. Yes, we had small gatherings and we practiced social distancing and we were all responsible in our interactions. 

After Thanksgiving, my sister Kathy got her Christmas decorations out and she set up her tree. I told her I wasn't going to decorate for Christmas at my house. We spent the morning decorating her home  and like a great sister, she was not so subtle in telling me that I should decorate at least a little, that it didn't matter we were still working on our home and it was a mess. We all need a little Christmas. My husband never helps me decorate and the last few years it seemed it didn't matter one way or another if I did. He seemed to support my decision not to decorate. 

Once we got home to our house in Arizona, I did get out our fake five foot tree and put it up. Russ came in from outside and I was looking at our tree with a little dismay. we have ten foot ceilings and this little tree looked so out of place. With money short in our lives I was going to make it work for us. 

We had to do some running around to get done and Russ told me we should look at trees. I didn't want to get a real one because we wouldn't be home for Christmas and it would just die anyway. There was a huge nine foot pre-lit Christmas tree we were both drawn too. I was surprised my husband showed this much interest. I realized he wanted our home to be decorated. Well, to my surprise we brought the tree home and it is now up with all of the little ornaments I had in storage for 9 years. (that is another story) I decorated a little around the house, just enough to give us a little Christmas joy in our forever home. 

Now what I need is a little inspiration to come up with a story idea.

I pray for a good job after the new year and for everything to start falling into place. 

I pray for everyone. We can all use a little Christmas magic after the year we have had.

 

2020 The Worst Year In Memory

It is already November 1st of 2020. What a year. Everyone has a story to tell about this terrible year as the hits just kept on coming for most of us and it isn't even done yet. I try to be optimistic about the coming year of 2021, but too much has happened and nothing is ever going to be the same. 

Russ was layed off from his job at Boeing in June because of COVID19. Unfortunately, my paycheck couldn't pay the bills we had and we ended up having to sell our home in Washington State and move to Arizona where it is definitely a lower cost of living. Even though I had a job I ended up losing it because of COVID19 as well by having to quit. 

Now, we are both unemployed and trying to live on his unemployment. I'm trying to get unemployment because of the circumstances of COVID19, but so far I've been denied and I'm trying to appeal the decision. It doesn't seem right there is help for people who lose their job because of COVID19, as far as unemployment and the pandemic help from the federal government, but I can't get any help because I wasn't layed off even though I had to quit because of COVID19. 

Jobs with benefits are very difficult to come by and that is what we need, especially with COVID19 still threatening our health. I pray we don't get sick, because what little we have would be gone if we did get sick. We use our masks and social distance as required just to be safe. Washing hands and disinfecting is not really new to us since we've always had good hygiene. 

All around us people are affected by COVID19. Family and friends are getting sick and dying, businesses are cutting back hours and closing their doors and we are all told to stay home and only go out when necessary to keep from giving it to each other until a vaccine can be made to kill off the disease.

It is scary to be out because of how angry people are, the riots, the lawlessness, the racism, the hate and the civil unrest on top of there being an election in a couple of days. It is a very scary time to live with all of the uncertainly. 

I had to go shopping for a few things today and I couldn't believe the anger and rudeness in people as I went through the store to get what I needed. Being nice and smiling at people just didn't cut it for most of the people I came across today. I was cussed out for no apparent reason, scowled because someone was in a hurry and I wasn't fast enough at getting out of their way. I looked around at people not seeing any smiles. I realized I wasn't the only one people were mean to. I saw what I was feeling in other peoples faces as they did their shopping too. Geesh, I tell you I couldn't wait to get home just to be away from the meanness people were displaying today. 

Well, with all the negative things happening in the world and the United States right now, I look to our blessings, even though they are hard to see sometimes, I know I have many, I have God in my life. I have a  wonderful family and awesome friends. I'm thankful for each and every one of them. I have a home to live in surrounded with photos of the people who I love the most and by the things I have collected through the years that holds all my memories of the life I have lived. 

I may not know what our future holds for us with all of the uncertainly, but I will always look to all of the blessings we have. 

Happy New Year 2020

Happy New Year Everyone!

We are getting ready to go home from our Christmas vacation tomorrow morning from here in California. Back to Washington, back to work, back to routine. I've decided not to have any New Years resolution this year. I just want God to lead the way. I have too much going on inside of me to really narrow it down.

Being with family this year was what was needed for all of us. 2019 was a trying year and now I just need to look forward. I pray it is a good year for all of us.

This is a short post, mainly I wanted to take the time to wish everyone who reads this a blessed new year.